New bacteria

Ken's blood cultures show a bacteria in his blood. It showed up last night. I didn't hear about it till this morning when his temp rose to 104.8. They put a cooling blanket under Ken and his temp came down. They put him on a new antibiotic last night that should cover it, but the lab is still running tests to see what will for sure kill it. They said they would have more info by noon today to see if they need to make changes in his meds.

I am getting very mixed messages and feelings from the nurses and doctors. Some are acting like he is stable and that is a good thing. They almost seem hopeful. Then another doc makes me think this is as good as it is going to get for Ken, that I need to stay with him as much as possible. Dr. McSweeney, an oncologist, asked me how I was feeling about things this morning and I told him I was confused by all the mixed messages. He wants me to talk to Dr. Matous, Ken's original doctor about the whole thing. Dr. McSweeney says I am getting different messages about his present care versus what his long term outcome looks like. He is going to talk to Dr. Matous and set up a meeting with me. I am not sure I want to go to that meeting. I need to know, but I am so afraid of the message. Sometimes it is so hard, but all I can do is hope. I hope we can get through this with Ken's lungs getting stronger. I hope this bacteria that they found quickly clears up and doesn't cause him more damage. His stats seem ok for now. I'm hanging onto that and hoping for the best.

If anyone reads the comments, I just wanted to mention that my boss from 15 years ago surprised me in the comments of my last message by printing the words to Ken's and my wedding song, from our wedding 20 years ago. Sweet that Frank remembered and so sweet that he would take the time to print it in our blog. Thanks Frank. It meant a lot to me to read those words again and sing them in my heart. Amazing that you remembered. I'm going to read the words to Ken as soon as the nurses finish messing with him and leave the room.

I had planned to be at work today. My poor boss. Linda is on vacation today, I'm at the hospital and our student called in sick. My boss is handling everything alone. I should be there, but I just can't leave today. Maybe tomorrow. I'm so lucky to have an understanding boss. His name is Ken too. Thanks Ken.

Hope all is well with you. Please say an extra prayer for us again today. I know your prayers are helping. God Bless You. Bev